A Messy Spiritualityby Tim Sitterley
I called on the king, but he made me wait in his hall, and conducted like a man incapacitated for hospitality. There was a man in my neighborhood who lived in a hollow tree. His manners were truly regal. I should have done better had I called on him.
—— Henry David Thoreau, Walden
I conducted a funeral last week unlike any I had participated in before. But then, the man I spoke about was unlike any man I've dealt with before. The only word I could find to best describe the life of Glenn Romprey was "messy".
Glenn was a man who was both brilliant and insane — perceptive and manic. A man whose vision for the church was only overshadowed by his struggle with mental illness. Glenn saw clearly past the trappings of "Churchianity" to what the church could be, and as a result, he made those of us with the job of tending the flock very nervous.
Glenn is at peace now, and the church can rest a little easier as well. But the attitudes Glenn expressed in the following poem are still issues facing those in leadership today. I know the pastor Jack he speaks of, and I've had the chance to share communion with Josh.
And all too often I have asked myself if I'm part of the problem or part of the solution. Men like Glenn Romprey have a way of creating that kind of uneasiness.
Church Without Walls
by Glenn Romprey
(October 3, 1964 - May 6, 2007)
"A church without walls,"
I said to the Rev,
Who purchased my burger,
some fries, and a coke ...
It must have been winter
some several years back;
I was out on a lunch date
with dear Pastor Jack.
His dream was quite big,
and kind were his lips
When he asked me this question
between thoughtful sips:
"Glenn, I care for the homeless
- I actually do.
I'd like them to come
and fill up my pew.
I'd like to build a new church,
you see;
One for the poor
to come and hear me."
I said to the Rev
- with no thought at all -
YOU NEED TO BUILD A
CHURCH WITHOUT WALLS.
You put up a South wall
- they will not stay;
An East and a West wall
will keep them away;
Maybe a North wall
to hang your high cross;
But your four solid walls
will not save the lost!
He looked at me a bit aloof.
"That's right, Jack," I said,
"you can forget the roof!!
They've begged for a roof
for a hundred years.
You watched in the rain
with crocodile tears.
You let them come
sit down and dry -
Then ran for the exit,
when they came by!
For every drunk
in his personal Hades,
I hope you found mercy
for all the bag ladies.
It's too late for a roof, Rev.
Thanks for the lunch."
He looked at me thoughtful
and nodded a bunch.
A year had passed.
Jack moved up the street
To a wonderful church
where the wealthy folk meet.
Far up in the hills,
too far to walk,
Where theologians love to talk.
I visited them.
I ate their rich food.
But I was a stranger
and seemed kind of crude.
I smelled back then.
My clothes, they were old.
Yet into Jack's church,
I came walking - bold.
"Pastor Jack is busy, sir,
please wait by the wall" -
Knowing they'd rather
I'd not come at all.
Wonderful walls, painted up halls,
clean toilet stalls
inhabit each floor.
A fully stocked kitchen.
Lord, what a score!
So I fed myself well,
not knowing when
I'd ever get to eat there again.
And I had a few words
with dear Pastor Jack.
But I was crazy
and not welcome back. ...
Some years have now passed
and I've cleaned myself up -
I found me a church
with a communion cup.
I do not agree with all of their views.
I'm somewhat upset
that they rearranged pews!
We never sing my favorite hymn,
But, by and by,
I've become part of them.
I quit condemning their violet walls,
But every chance
I crowd in their halls
Homeless bums and smelly feet -
Those who need a place to eat.
Crazies, roughly pushed away;
They are the ones I want for to stay.
And now my church is heaven bent,
Forgiving men incontinent.
Chairs can be cleaned - carpets, too.
I love the homeless. How 'bout you?
They hide and they sleep
outside our wall.
I wish they saw no wall at all.
'Cept for Josh who likes our wall;
He found a place where he can crawl.
One night it plunged past 25.
I worried he would stay alive.
'Cause if he froze outside our wall,
would that impact my church at all?
Hmmm. I often think of Pastor Jack.
You think that he would take it back?
If you head up-class,
there you may find him.
Give him my love
- and then remind him -
No need to say my name at all.
Just whisper in his ear, "No Walls."
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